HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIANCE

Its my beloved fiance's birthday today.
24.10.2008.
He is MOHD AKHMAL B OTHMAN.

There is a lot to be said about him, my only worry is mere words won't do him justice.
He means so much more to me than what I can write and say. But I can only try.

I'm reposting a post I once wrote of him, to him, for him somewhere else, and putting it here for the world to see. Trying not to be too sappy... hihi

To my FIANCE, Happy Birthday!

Mi amor, Te quiero mucho, para siempre..

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To the man for whom my heart beats, my feelings shall remain forever true.

" Love seeketh not itself to please, nor for itself hath any care; but for another gives its ease, and builds a heaven in hell’s despair." (William Blake)

He came when I graduated from my youth’s innocence and naivety, my departure from immaturity marked by the birth of cynicism, skepticism and wariness. I was no longer the too obliging, too accepting, and too trusting girl I once was. At that first moment of introduction, he was barely an impression. He was to me, merely just another guy I crossed in my fated journey through life. But the steeled me was softened when he came knocking on my door with a sexy voice and intense care and concern.

He came when stranger feelings roam the insides of my mind. He wasn’t the first to audition for that one special place to reside in my heart, but he was the first who got the part. He came when I was not quite ambivalent nor was I confused with the mysteries of love ideals and dreamy romantics (despite being a cynic). He came when I had a deeper passion for the goals I have in life and his presence indirectly invited some changes to my plans. But his was a pleasant existence – welcomed and gratifying albeit knowing the risks and having the doubts that would sometimes to me, seemed daunting and costly. He came to give me feelings that scared me for a while. But he came in valiant and bold, and I felt only virtuous to take him just as bravely. Life is about taking a leap and hoping to fly. And I flew, with him.

He came to me as he came with emotional anguish of lost friends and broken trusts. He came all dignified though fallen and wounded. The key they said he was, thrown away in spite. But strengthened in falls and emboldened by faith that truth will prevail, he came to me with grandeur, humbled ideals, hopes, forgiveness and an ego that would fix his world and mine.
He came with soccer balls, fishing rods and hockey sticks. He came with late nights football matches, hockey tourneys, deep-sea fishing trips, jerseys, and soccer talks. He also came with band aids and plasters, bruises, sunburns and injured knees and a great deep passion for fun and risks. He was all of the things I never gave much thought to, all of the things I wasn’t looking for, but he was all of the things that pleases me and stole my heart blind.

He came with tiger balm white always in hand, and often coming in handy for him and me alike. He came with caring of a lesser being, and feline adoration. He came with brotherly instincts to his pets and other people’s younger siblings. He came full of love for life and for the living. The kind of guy any mother is proud to have as a son.

He is a gravitating figure – whose face and good sense of humour invites female adulation. He came with pained memories, bitter pasts and honesty. He came to me with small squabbles and minor rows naturally. But he also came with understanding and with sweet smiles and soothing words to make it all better again. He came to keep good care of the heart I put in his possession. He’s still keeping it well. Even when we falter sometimes, he mends it. My heart in his hands.

He came with love and touched me in ways I never thought possible. He came with reassurance and comforts of safety and reliance. He came with an unsoiled demeanor and conducts that stole my family’s hearts. He came with plans for the future. He came with practicality and rationale. He came with lessons, advices, encouragements and support. He came with all the things that make me a better person inside out.

He came all around me and made me wonder how he ever got here. He came with all the intricate little things and the great big things that he is. He came to change my world. He did and is still doing a good job at it.

And I love him for who he is and how he makes me feel. And I love him for who I am when I’m with him.